I ask my myself why I changed.
Why did my smiles stop?
There were no tears,
No aching sadness,
Just a missing smile.
Silence and loneliness clings to me
Like darkness hugs all during the night.
The sun chases away the darkness,
Still I remain standing in the dark,
No light comes to rescue me.
People come and go —
Laughter comes and goes.
The silent, lonely darkness remains.
My ever faithful companion.
Still there is no sadness.
I wondered did this happen to other people as well?
And then I realized,
I am only ever as alone as I allow myself to be.
I decided that while the darkness may be a part of me.
It would not rule me.
I let the sun bring me into its warm embrace,
And my smile shines as bright.
The need to find sadness is gone.
I can smile.
Sara Horton is a Founding Editor of The Olive Press